Chemistry, desire, lust, unfulfilled needs, or doubt

Chemistry, desire, lust, unfulfilled needs, or doubt. These are just a few of the words that come to mind when thinking about why one would consider stepping outside of what those that are closest close to us would think to be “normal” or acceptable.

This week I had a chance to spend some more time with this person that seems to be so much like me, and personally I find a deeper connection. It’s not love but probably some combination of all those things mentioned above. No I don’t know if they feel it too, nor to the degree that I do.

My assessment of these things in part, and I believe on their part is this: I have always had a healthy opinion of myself, I have never doubted my self-worth but one can only go so long without having that self-worth affirmed and reaffirmed.

I think that’s it in a nutshell, this draw I have toward this person and vice-versa me thinks. I do not believe that either of us is willing to change our lives at this point, not in our interaction, but in our own lives as well, and I would never do anything to complicate nor cause problems for either of us in our personal or work lives.

I will simply say this. Thank you for giving a little of yourself to me. I have told you that you are good for my ego, not because of anything you say or do but because of who you are and you have let me in a little bit.

And I know you don’t seem to believe me but I guess I will keep saying it until you do, I find you incredibly attractive, always have, I would have never in a million years though you found me interesting.