Feelings

The hardest part for me is the feeling that I have to put my feelings back into a box when you left today. It didn’t occur to me that’s what was bothering me but upon reflection, that’s exactly what it feels like. When I’m with you I can let them out for a little while and share them with you. Yes, there are feelings of guilt that come later that I shouldn’t be sharing those feelings with you but when I’m with you that’s not what I’m thinking or feeling.

You said today that others have noticed a difference in you and more to the point your significant other has noticed a difference and seems to be making an effort, and I’m paraphrasing, “if we can use our knowing each other to help with our personal relationships, that can’t be all bad”. I suppose it can’t, and I can’t argue with that too much.

I want you to get your passion back, I want you to be happy and as unbelievable as it may sound, I hope you find that in a place where you can feel good about it.

Not to worry I’m not going anywhere, I value you too much. (that sounds kinda stupid doesn’t it but, it’s true) or maybe we just need to figure out the boundries together. I think that's what we were saying today.

I can't lie to you, I don't know why that is... I've answered every question, difficult or not that you have asked me. So believe me when I say this, you are wonderful, sexy, and special to me.