Inspiration

All anyone wants, whether they know it or not, is to find their inspiration. Sometimes we find that inspiration within sometimes from without, and sometimes it’s a combination of both those.
I have never doubted myself, and though I know this is going to sound arrogant I know it to be true, and that is I am a wonderful person. Though I know this to be true, I do not always use this as my inspiration.

I do not rely on this to inspire me to be a better person, like wanting to be thinner, healthier, and happier. I suppose I have typically relied on those around me to provide me with inspiration. But that inspiration it seems like I am given is a lot like brussel sprouts I suppose, I know it’s good for me but I sure hate the way it tastes.

This type of inspiration seems contingent upon something… like I am not good enough the way I am and someone would find me more acceptable if I would only do this or that or lose weight or whatever.

The inspiration you have given me is a lot like an orange, in that I like oranges, and it’s good for me too.

We all want to be accepted for who we are and when we are in that place of safety no matter what the circumstances there is inspiration. For me there is that inspiration to make myself a better person.

Something very personal to each and everyone of us is sex, and acceptance. This is something that has lacked for a while in my life and the sad thing is I’m very much sexual person and I think I relate that to acceptance many times. And I know personally, I was/do feel rejected because of lack of sex and therefore acceptance.

It’s not for lack of trying, we all get older our bodies, and none of us are what we use to be. And I doubt that may of us are how we see ourselves in our mind’s eye. Changing doesn’t bother me in the lease as long as there is acceptance. In the absence of acceptance we are left with a choice, to accept what we are given or turn to the inspiration within ourselves.

In knowing you, I have felt your acceptance, conflicted though it may be, but acceptance none the less and in that I have found inspiration. I have also learned to look within myself to a greater degree for my inspiration as well.

Thank you for inspiring me.